Wednesday, April 9, 2014

The Watch That Ends the Night

The Watch That Ends the Night
By: Allan Wolf
The Watch That Ends the Night
Arrogance and innocence, hubris and hope--twenty-four haunting voices of the Titanic tragedy, as well as the iceberg itself, are evoked in a stunning tour de force. Millionaire John Jacob Astor hopes to bring home his pregnant teen bride with a minimum of media scandal. A beautiful Lebanese refugee, on her way to family in Florida, discovers the first stirrings of love. And an ancient iceberg glides south, anticipating its fateful encounter. The voices in this remarkable re-creation of the Titanic disaster span classes and stations, from Margaret ("the unsinkable Molly") Brown to the captain who went down with his ship; from the lookout and wireless men to a young boy in search of dragons and a gambler in search of marks. Slipping in telegraphs, undertaker’s reports, and other records, poet Allan Wolf offers a breathtaking, intimate glimpse at the lives behind the tragedy, told with clear-eyed compassion and astounding emotional power.

I put this book on hold at the library the minute I read the synopsis. Last year I read The Song of the Sparrow last year and adored it. Though that book is vastly different from this one, it was a historical fiction book told in verse. That was a new experience for me and I loved the combination of those two things. So when I heard that this was a book about the titanic told in verse, instantly I had to get my hands on this book.

This book did not disappoint. It is gorgeous, emotional, and poignant. It deals with these stories, these people with sensitivity. As Allan Wolf says in his Author's Note:

"My aim in writing The Watch That Ends the Night was not to present history. My aim was to present humanity. The people represented in this book lived and breathed and loved. They were as real as you or me. They could have been any one of us."

This book accomplished just that. I was fascinated with how he took documented people and facts and fictionalized bits of their stories. This was done so well and so thoroughly. He gave life to these people

I don't know what else to say about this book other than that it is beautiful and heartbreaking. I can't compare it to any other book I've read, but it hit me so hard. This book exhibits how we can study the past, learn from it, and feel for those who lived through it. These stories have purpose, intertwine, and show the humanity of everyone on that ship. A haunting depiction of one the world's greatest tragedies, yet there are moments of humor and love and faith and artistry. It shows the full spectrum of human emotions within the 440 pages of story.

One of my favorite parts of this book was the formatting. Almost every page switches perspective, with the name and title for the person. Each character was rich and full and genuine, even though we only really saw them for one page at a time. The characterization was perfect, focusing on smaller details that define the people (the engraved ring, the dragons, the bees). It got you into their mind quickly and succinctly, which is why this format worked so well.

Another one of my favorite parts were the sections written from the perspective of the ice. Those segments were full of so much foreboding. It made the glacier into a sinister entity, present as a symbol for fate and disaster. They were gorgeous and so haunting.

This is a book that will touch you to your core and haunt you past reading it. I know this book has changed me, empathy and compassion imbued in this book and looking complexly at history and humans. This gorgeous collection of human stories is more than worth reading.

And now I'm going to leave you with a hundred quotes because this book is gorgeous and you need the words inside your brain and heart.

Quotes:

"I am the ice. I see tides ebb and flow.
I've watched civilizations come and go,
give birth, destroy, restore, be gone, begin.
My blink of an eye is humankind's tortoise slow.
Today's now is tomorrow's way back when."

"I am the ice; I am of water made.
That's why it's now of water that I speak:
Watch how the water licks Titanic's hull.
Hear how the water makes her rivets creak.
See how, before her trip even begins,
the water is obsessed with getting in."

"Thank God Eleanor and I were both born poor
so the concept of fidelity was allowed to take root in us.
Marriage without struggle is like an unfired clay pot.
It is easily made, but it will not stand the test of time."

"The heart, the heart - that little living lump.
A stubborn bird, it never leaves its nest
behind the ribs within its human chest.
And therein lies the mystery to me:
What magic makes it start? I need to know.
And what sustains it once it starts to go?
...They keep the beat. The meter. Steady rocks.
Like clocks: they tick and tock to track the time.
And when two human lovers meet - they chime.
Within my frozen mass I cannot find
an equal to the heart of mankind.

"Man's fatal flaw is misplaced optimism:
through hubris, it refuses to understand
that chaos is the ruling law of Nature
while order's just a futile dream of man."

"It's silly, really, that a machine might instruct a man
in the finer points of the human heart."

"I move my dial a century into the future: the year is 2012.
Armies are still at war. The poor are still poor. The rich still rich.
Glaciers continue to shed mountains of ice into the oceans.
The world still tilts at twenty-three and one half degrees.
The entire human race stands idly by as the great ship lists.
I see it so clearly, how we are all of us on the Titanic's deck,
steaming happily toward destruction or stopped dead in the water-
content that human ingenuity will keep us afloat forever..."

"I may have made it safely to the Carpathia,
but I still don't feel safe. No woman is safe, truly.
So long as we are denied equal say. Equal votes.
Equal representation. Equal opportunities. Equal wages.
So let Mrs. Candee wears the latest fashion.
I'll do the same. (I don't want to be a man!)
But I'll keep my ugly life vest on
over top of my beaded Parisian gown.
And I'll wear it as a reminder
that we are not yet standing on solid grount.
And as I rock whatever boat I choose, I will ask for justice.
And I will not "ask pretty."

"When it comes to historical fiction, history is the birdcage; fiction is the bird. The included biographies will help somewhat to distinguish bird from cage."


Monday, April 7, 2014

TTT: Most Unique Books

Ten Most Unique Books


Ten Tuesday is a weekly feature hosted by The Broke and the Bookish. Every week they have a different Top Ten list topic that a bunch of bloggers take and make their own list of those things.
This week the theme is all about books that are so unique. Books that are different than anything you've read before. This topic is really fun for me because I love books that push the boundaries of what I've read before. I love books that take risks.

Unwind (Unwind, #1)1. Unwind
Honestly one of the coolest and most haunting books I have ever read. The way Shusterman weaves so many hot button topics into this series without bias. He presents situations and characters to look at these issues through, but never once decides these things for the reader. It feels more like a discussion than a lecture.
The Lightning Thief (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, #1)
2. The Lightning Thief
Or basically everything that Riordan writes. The way he mixes mythology with today's world is spectacular and hilarious and so interesting. You learn about mythology and ancient cultures while also being thoroughly entertained.
The Rithmatist (Rithmatist, #1)
3. The Rithmatist
Need I say more than, a magic system based on fighting chalk drawing that come to life? A mysterious murder spree and an underdog , ragtag cast of characters trying to solve them? SIGN ME UP.
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children (Miss Peregrine's Peculiar Children, # 1)
4. Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children
The way Riggs combines antique pictures with prose makes this book a true masterpiece. Atmosphere and good story-telling combined.
Dying to Know You
5. Dying to Know You
A YA book not told from a young adult's perspective, or even a middle-aged person's perspective? Such a cool idea. It looked at what youth is and means from a totally new vantage point that I loved reading.

The Night Circus
6. The Night Circus
A whimsical and haunting circus that travels around the world, but only opens at night. Beautiful, dark imagery and writing.This book opens into a whole new level of unique.

Mr. Penumbra's 24-Hour Bookstore7. Mr. Penumbra's 24-Hour Bookstore
A mysterious old book club united with cutting edge technology that offers an interesting take on both the old world and the new. This book blew my mind in the best ways because it was so not what I was expecting, but so awesome all the same.
The Princess Bride
8. The Princess Bride
Dissecting the typical tropes of Fairy Tales with humor and cynicism. Absolutely brilliant in its execution of the subject matter and a legend of a book.

Song of the Sparrow9. The Song of the Sparrow
A historical book told in verse. I was in love from the moment I read the synopsis. I think this format works so well with historical fiction and I would love to see more of this type of book, even if that means this one becomes less unique.

The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making (Fairyland, #1)10 The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of her own Making
Another dissecting of classic Fairy Tales, but this time done with less snark and cynicism and more absolutely gorgeous prose. Valente makes a world so vast and strange and beautiful with characters that you can't help but love.

The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Aza Lavender

The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender
By: Leslye Walton
The Strange and Beautiful  Sorrows of Ava Lavender
Foolish love appears to be the Roux family birthright, an ominous forecast for its most recent progeny, Ava Lavender. Ava—in all other ways a normal girl—is born with the wings of a bird. In a quest to understand her peculiar disposition and a growing desire to fit in with her peers, sixteen-year old Ava ventures into the wider world, ill-prepared for what she might discover and naïve to the twisted motives of others.
 
How to begin with this book, that is the question. Honestly I have no good way of describing it other than just what the title claims. This book is completely beautiful, but mostly strange. As a debut novel, this book is so mind-blowing. Even if this wasn't a debut, it'd still be mind-blowing. This story was so well-crafted and so transformative.
 
This is going to be a ramble-y review because there is no other way I can think to do it. All the parts of this story, the characters, the writing, the plot, it all ties together perfectly. The symbolism, the characterization, and the tone were all always on point and always so beautiful, and well...strange. What I wasn't expecting was how much this book would cover, how many stories and characters this relatively tiny book could include. This covered the story of Ava's great-grandparents, her grandma and all her siblings, her mother's story, her father's story, Gabe's story, and Ava's own story. I honestly loved the format so much. Every chapter was something new and charming or sad or introspective. I inhaled this book in less than a day because I didn't want to stop reading and learning more about this cast of characters.
 
With so many characters it's so important that they all play the role they were created to play, that they get across who they are succinctly. That's where the characterization comes into play. Leslye Walton knows just how to teach you about each character in a way that gets you to understand them quickly and thoroughly in a short amount of time.
 
The language of this book is so evocative and enthralling. Every word, every sentence, every paragraph holds so much importance and so much emotion. There's no let up of beauty, no faltering, and no slowing down. It's full force beauty and emotion and imagery all through the book. I now know that I'll read anything that Leslye Walton writes in the future for sure, because dang. She can write! She handled the magical realism so perfectly. It felt just like magical realism should feel. Whimsical, but gritty and dark.
 
If you're looking for a book that is utterly unique and firmly emotional, then definitely pick this one up. I highly recommend it.
 
Quotes:
 
"To many, I was myth incarnate, the embodiment of a most superb legend, a fairy tale. Some considered me a monster, a mutation. To my great misfortune, I was once mistaken for an angel. To my mother, I was everything. To my father, nothing at all. To my grandmother, I was a daily reminder of loves long lost. But I knew the truth - deep down, I always did. I was just a girl."
 
"Foreseeing the future, I would later learn, means nothing if there is nothing to be done to prevent it."
 
"Just remember...my heart," she would say, "royal blood flows from our wounds."
 
"There it was again. Fate. As a child, that word was often my only companion. It whispered to me from dark corners during lonely nights. It was the song of the birds in spring and the call of the wind through bare branches on a cold winter afternoon. Fate. Both my anguish and my solace. My escort and my cage."
 
"Summer rain smelled like newly clipped grass, like mouths stained red with berry juice - blueberries, raspberries, blackberries. It smelled like late nights spent pointing constellations out from their starry guises, freshly washed laundry drying outside on the line, like barbecues and stolen kisses in a 1932 Ford Coupe."
 
"And that might just be the root of the problem: we're all afraid of each other, wings or no wings."
 
"She thought it was unfair that her life should be both irrelevant and difficult. One or the other seemed quite enough."
 
"They also made her think...of all the scars love's victims carry."


Monday, March 31, 2014

TTT: Gateway Books


Gateway Books In My Reading Journey

Ten Tuesday is a weekly feature hosted by The Broke and the Bookish. Every week they have a different Top Ten list topic that a bunch of bloggers take and make their own list of those things.
This week the theme is all about books that changed your reading horizons or opened doors that you never thought would interest you, but did. I love this topic because it shows how much one book can change your whole reading taste. I know I have quite a few of those.

Eragon (The Inheritance Cycle, #1)1. Eragon -
My First High Fantasy Series 

This was one of my brother's favorite series when we were growing up, but I always said that it was a "boy book" and that I didn't want to read it (my code for these books are huge and scary). But eventually he convinced me to read it thus beginning my love of all things dragons, dwarves, and elves. This definitely was my gateway book into my favorite genre.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): The Lumatere Chronicles, The Mistborn series, The Lord of the Rings, and so many others.
 
The Giver (The Giver #1)2. The Giver - My First Dystopian.
We had to read this in eighth grade English. Everyone was complaining about how weird it was and how boring, but I was so enthralled by it. The concept of creating a future world through fiction? That's still so cool to me. I was the student who went up to my teacher after class to ask for book recommendations like it.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): The Hunger Games, Divergent, The House of the Scorpion, Unwind.
 
Fairest3. Fairest - The first book that made me cry
The ending of this book is so beautiful. And Aza is so much like me. I understood her struggles and insecurities more than I'd understood any characters' before her. I cried for her when everything was going wrong and I cried for her when everything went right. Her happy ending brought little fourth-grade me solace, and I still try to reread this book every year. It's just very important to me.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): Alanna: The First Adventure, The Goose Girl, and Enna Burning.
 
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (Harry Potter, #1)
4. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone- My first Harry Potter book
This series started it all. I was handed my first Harry Potter book at the age of 7. It made me into a reader. It started my love affair with the whimsical and with the underdog story and with themes of heroism and love. I grew up with every one of these characters. Harry Potter was my childhood and I loved every page of it.
 
Books it inspired me to read: Every book I've read since this book. Every. Single. One.

Anna and the French Kiss (Anna and the French Kiss, #1) 
 

5. Anna and the French Kiss - my first YA contemporary
By the time I reached adolescence I was thoroughly in love with fantasy in every form. But I'd heard so many great things about this book. It sounded actually cute so I decided to give it a chance, even though it wasn't in my preferred genre. I am so glad that I did. I connected with this story in a way I didn't know I could connect with a contemporary.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): Fangirl, The Fault in our Stars, Faking Normal.
 
Divergent (Divergent, #1)6. Divergent - Opened the Goodreads Gate
The book that made me get a goodreads account. I had browsed Goodreads before, but I made an account because I wanted to vote for Divergent in the Goodreads Awards because I loved it so much. That opened me up to the blogging world and SO many new book recommendations. I've branched out in ways I didn't think I could.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): Basically every book I've found through Goodreads and other bloggers. So...every book I've read in the last two years.
 
Little Women
7. Little Women - My First Classic.
I adored this book when I was ten and listened to it 20 times in one summer. With how many times I've reread this book and how well I know these characters, I feel like I grew up with the March sisters. Their struggles have helped me in my struggles. Their growth has inspired my growth. Not many books have become as ingrained in me as this book.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): Pride and Prejudice, The Help, Alice in Wonderland, and all the other classics I read in my childhood.
 
Pride and Prejudice8. Pride and Prejudice - My First Austen
What a wonderful time in a person's life, their first Austen novel. Thus far I've only read Emma and Pride and Prejudice, but these stories have deeply resonated with my perspective on people and on all kinds of relationships (familial, sibling, and romantic).
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): Jane Eyre and Emma.
 
9. Julius Caesar - My First Shakespeare.
Julius CaesarOddly enough, Romeo and Juliet wasn't my first Shakespeare (and neither was A Midsummer's Night Dream). Though those are the most common. But we read Julius Caesar in my sophomore English class. I really enjoyed it, but what made me love the play was when we saw it performed live. It opened my eyes to the true wit and emotion of Shakespeare's writing. Since then it's been a great love of mine.
 


Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): Macbeth, Romeo and Juliet, and Midsummer's Night Dream.

The Lightning Thief (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, #1)10. Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief - My First of Riordan Book
First off, it was my first introduction to Percy and Annabeth. They've since become some of my very favorite characters and the world that Riordan has created has become one of my favorite worlds. The humor and adventure of these books make them so fun and so fantastic. Since reading this (little more than a year ago) I've read twelve books by Rick Riordan and I have adored every single one of them.
 
Books it inspired me to read (directly or indirectly): The Heroes of Olympus, The Kane Chronicles, and The Rithmatist.

Jane Eyre

Jane Eyre
By: Charlotte Bronte
Jane Eyre
Orphaned Jane Eyre grows up in the home of her heartless aunt, where she endures loneliness and cruelty, and at a charity school with a harsh regime. This troubled childhood strengthens Jane's natural independence and spirit—which proves necessary when she takes a position as governess at Thornfield Hall. But when she finds love with her sardonic employer, Rochester, the discovery of his terrible secret forces her to make a choice. Should she stay with him and live with the consequences, or follow her convictions, even if it means leaving the man she loves?
 
I get it now, guys. I get it. Jane Eyre is a big deal of a book, there are so many cultural references to it, so much of literature is derived from it. It's one of the biggest books from the 1800s and one of the most well-known and beloved classic novels. It was a matter of time until I finally gathered the courage to read it. This book is almost unanimously loved by readers of all ages, genders, and backgrounds. That much hype can be intimidating, but this book, this book more than lived up to all of it. I totally understand why this novel has stood the test of time and why it's so beloved. I absolutely loved this book.

I love that this book is more a character study than anything. Jane is the perfect narrator to examine all the characters that she interacts from Mr. Rochester to St. John. It's an in-depth look at how superiority, subservience, will, temper, external circumstances, and convictions weigh in matters of love and marriage. That being said, Jane always, always, always felt more like a character than a caricature. Now I understand why Jane is such a beloved literary character. She's sympathetic, and she holds on to her agency throughout the story. She is wherever she is because she believes that it is best for her to be there. She considers others in her decision making process, but she doesn't cater to their every wish. She is firm in her values, unwavering in her loyalty, and never give up either for love or position. She demanded to be treated like a person, never revered as an angel or thrown out as a demon. She is the heroine to inspire all heroines. And yet, she never becomes too perfect. She never even ventures near 'Mary Sue' territory. She feels things deeply and wholly and utterly, but her emotions don't fully dictate her choices. Sometimes she has to talk sense into herself, but she always comes to her senses.

I love that Jane wasn't willing to take terms in her love life that she couldn't live with, even for those she loved most. This kept her relationships healthy. She is the heroine that young girls should be looking up to and aspiring to be like.

The writing is gorgeous as well as accessible. The characters are distinctive and well-drawn. The plot is slow, but large and wonderful. I adored every second of this book. It pulled me in from the beginning, something that doesn't always happen with classics. But I found the language to be very immersive. I know that this is a book that is going to stick with me forever.

Quotes:

"But I believed in the existence of other and more vivid kinds of goodness and what I believed in I wished I behold."

"Women are supposed to be very calm generally, but women feel just as men feel. They need exercise for the faculties and a field for their efforts as much as their brothers do...It is thoughtless to condemn them or laugh at them if they seek to do more or learn more than custom has pronounced necessary for their sex."

"And I could not unlove him now merely because I had found that he ceased to notice me because I might pass hours in his presence and he would never once turn his eyes in my direction because I saw all his attentions appropriated by a great lady."

"There is no happiness like that of being loved by your fellow creatures and feeling that your presence is an addition to their comfort."

"I had rather be a thing than an angel."

"I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself. I will keep the law given by God, sanctioned by man...Laws and principles are not for the times when there is no temptation, they are for such moments as this, when body and soul rise in mutiny against their rigor."

"No reflection was to be allowed now: not one glance was to be cast back; not even one forward. Not one thought was to be given either to the past or the future. The first was a page so heavenly sweet - so deadly sad - that to read one line of it would dissolve my courage and break down my energy. The last was an awful blank: something like the world when the deluge was gone by."


Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Faking Normal

Faking Normal
By: Courtney Stevens
Faking Normal
Alexi Littrell hasn't told anyone what happened to her over the summer. Ashamed and embarrassed, she hides in her closet and compulsively scratches the back of her neck, trying to make the outside hurt more than the inside does. When Bodee Lennox, the quiet and awkward boy next door, comes to live with the Littrells, Alexi discovers an unlikely friend in "the Kool-Aid Kid," who has secrets of his own. As they lean on each other for support, Alexi gives him the strength to deal with his past, and Bodee helps her find the courage to finally face the truth.
 
This is the kind of book that's important, but that I don't read often. Mostly because it's contemporary and I have a difficult time getting into that genre. I decided to read it because this IS a genre that I feel I ignore too often and I heard great reviews from people I trust. And I was not disappointed. This book completely brought me inside the story. I felt for the characters. I was invested in their stories.
 
Characters:
These characters felt so genuine. They had motive and realistic emotion throughout the entire story. I felt for Alexi and Bodee and everything they went through. I loved all the little details of characterization as well as the broad-stroke aspects of character. These things made it feel that much more real to me. I feel like I know these characters, like they're friends. Besides relatability and heart, these characters are so important.
 
Plot:
This is very much a slow plot, a character-driven plot. That works so well for this story. It's about Alexi dealing with things, letting people in, letting Bodee in. I was reluctant because I wasn't sure how a supposed romance could work well into a story like this and not be problematic. I was hoping it wouldn't be a he-loves-me-so-everything-is-fine type deal. But it didn't feel like that to me at all. They were friends, they were slowing letting each other in. They both had things that needed to be worked out in their life. It was a slow progression, it was careful and tentative and just what they each needed.
 
Themes: 
This book is important. It deals with the importance of never victim-blaming, of being there for people when and how they need you. It gives an important voice to people who have suffered abuse. And, while I haven't read many books in this subgenre to compare it to, I think this book offered a unique perspective. It focused on finding the right people, the people who won't take but give, to help you through your pain. The issues were handled with sensitivity and emotion in a really beautiful way.
 
Quotes:
 
"There are no words to the music, and that makes me sad. Every song deserves lyrics. Deserves a story to tell."
 
"...I love my family, but it seems that I'm always with people I don't know how to talk to when I feel the saddest."
 
"Right now we're both yard sales of emotions. A penny for pain. A dime for bitterness. A quarter for grief. A dollar for silence. It binds us together, but I don't want him to pay the price for the parts of me that are used and broken."
 
"This thing with Bodee is shaped with expectations, but they're easy. And right. Like when I hold one of my stone carvings or a piece of pottery in progress and can tell I'll like the artwork. Even when it's not quite complete. Friends."
 
"The choice is mine, I realize. I can be the bird clinging to a windowsill in Tennessee when all my friends are in Florida, or I can be the bird who flies away. I can be free.
 
"That is another idea ingrained in me...To understand that telling what has already happened is not retaliation. To see the difference between suffering the consequences and taking an eye for an eye."

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Deathless

Deathless
By: Catherynne M. Valente
Deathless
Koschei the Deathless is to Russian folklore what devils or wicked witches are to European culture: a menacing, evil figure; the villain of countless stories which have been passed on through story and text for generations. But Koschei has never before been seen through the eyes of Catherynne Valente, whose modernized and transformed take on the legend brings the action to modern times, spanning many of the great developments of Russian history in the twentieth century.

I'm not sure how to write this, but I'm going to try anyway. I really considered not writing a review at all for this book, but I think it'll be good to collect all my thoughts and try to come up with solid feelings about this book.
 
First off, it was very different than I was expecting. I was expecting a story more like Catherynne M. Valente's other books that I've read, just without the lightness of YA/Middle Grade. But from the first page I could tell this was different, darker. Not a bad thing at all, it was really intriguing in that way. I wanted to be pulled deeper into the ashy world of 19th Century Russia and its folklore. As much as the shades of the type of story changed, you can definitely tell that it's Valente writing it. Her gorgeous prose is just as gorgeous here, if colored with more despair and less whimsy.
 
That being said, I didn't connect with this story as much as I wanted to. I didn't feel the themes as deeply as I did in her other books. Which, is not the book's fault, but I want my reviews to reflect my honest experiences with the books I read. Some of the metaphors felt distant and the ending didn't hit me as hard as I think it was designed to. (Again, this is a personal problem rather than a quality problem.)

This mixed in with the fact that many of the scenes made me deeply uncomfortable and that I skipped over a few of the scenes that were...let's just say more adult. I DO NOT recommend this book to a younger audience.
 
It was the difference between appreciating what this book was trying to convey (which I did) and feeling what it was trying to convey (which, sadly, I did not). There were beautifully written passages, passages that did make a connection. But I felt locked out of just as many of them.
 
I guess my reading of this book was a lesson in the subjective nature of stories. We bring our personal experiences to everything that we read, and sometimes that means not hitting that magical connection that we've experienced with other books. That doesn't mean we quit stepping into different stories, if anything it should inspire us to take more risks.
 
I realize that this was less like a review of the book and more like a rambling about my experience with it. But honestly, this is what I have to say about this story. If the premise and synopsis interests you, definitely give it a go. Maybe you'll connect with the depths of this story where I couldn't.
 
Quotes: 


"I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived. You, too, must learn to prefer it. After all, when all else is gone, you may still have bitterness in abundance."

"I suppose because it's boring to keep telling stories where people just get born and grow up and get married and die. So they add strange things in, to make it more interesting when a person is born, more satisfying when they get married, sadder when they die."

"Walk the same tale over and over, until you wear a groove in the world, until even if you vanished, the tale would keep turning, keep playing, like a phonograph, and you'd have to get up again, even with a bullet through your eye, to play your part and say your lines."

"Time is communal...the most purely communal of all commodities. It belongs to us all equally. So why hoard it?"

"They happen because Life consumes everything and Death never sleeps, and between them the world moves. Winter becomes spring. And every once in a while, they act out a strange, sad little pantomime, just to see if anyone has won yet. If the world still moves as it used to...Like a passion play. Like a sacrifice. It is certainly not my fault."

"Everywhere her vision doubled and trebled, and her head sagged with the weight of it. Everything kept occurring all at once, each thing on top of the last."

"She is so stubborn her heart has an argument with her head every time it wants to beat."